Trust

Tonight is the first night for my new bible study for post-abortive women. It’s the first time I will be leading it with a friend of mine from the Pregnancy Services in East Lansing.

I’ve been praying for a bible verse that I could refer to as I prepare for this study – a verse that would be my mantra, my strength, my refuge when things get tough. God didn’t whisper it in my ear, He just brought the same verse to me several different times over the course of a week or two.

Matthew 16:19 NIV
“What you lock on earth will be locked in heaven. What you unlock on earth will be unlocked in heaven.”

When I read that, my eyes were blind to its meaning. I thought maybe God had sent me the wrong verse. If this verse was meant to be the one to guide me through this study, shouldn’t I understand it?

Duh. Yeah!

Then it clicked! If I bind my fears here on earth, if I don’t do what God has planned for me, I will take those fears and the failures that result from those fears with me when I die. Then I would stand before God and have to explain my choices. No, thank you!

If I unlock my fears while I’m living, if I don’t worry about what other people see in me, but seek God in all I think, say and do, then when I come before Him, I will have no baggage. There will be nothing holding me back from accepting all He as to offer. Sign me up for that!

Attending and leading a bible study for women who have suffered from abortions is not easy. Walking into that first meeting is as scary as walking before a firing squad. But if we face God and ask Him for strength to drop that which is holding us back, He will respond. He will not let us down.

Please pray for women like me who have had abortions- pray that they find forgiveness for themselves, from their child, and see that God will always love them and He is waiting for them to realize that and come home.

Life after forgiveness is a gift of Love that comes only from trusting God.